2013- i'm embracing it and excited about it

Christmas was ok- I quit smoking Cigarettes on the 26th. Haven't had one yet... I know I am strong.. in certain aspects.. but I could be soooo fucking weak in other areas that ... it's pathetic... One thing for sure.. I wanna instill this in my BRAIN, MY HEART- IF I DO ANYTHING.. I'M GONNA MAKE SURE ITS GONNA BE DONE WITH QUALITY, INTEGRITY, AND ITS GONNA BE MOTHER FUCKING WORTH IT FOR ME- That's all I could say.... If I decide to do something, if I'm in something, if i'm gonna get down with it... ITS GONNA BE MOTHER FUCKING WORTH IT ALL THE WAY AROUND.. Quitting cigarettes.. FUCK YEA.. IT WAS mother fucking worth it.. First, off I promised Jade.. and if there was anything I could do for that baby girl to actually have some real Value.. this would be it.. because i'm planning on sticking around for awhile with these kids that I created.. :) I spend LESS MONEY, everything tastes and smells better, and this weezing I've been having like forever.. is now.. almost gone :) Next- physically on my routine and working out HARD- The Dirty Girl Mud run is comming up next month so this was another thing I was trying to prepare for physically and mentally.. IF I COULD DO THIS... I CAN DO ANYTHING.. but you know what.. I already know I could do anything... but to actually DO IT- and go thru it.. its putting me in a diffrent mind set of life which is a positive thing :) Mentally- for my mind, heart, and soul- I've decided.. to lay low from all the party people for awhile. I've realized life is way too short.. partying is fun.. but its "funner" or SOOOO much better.. WHEN things matter.. instead of partying to forget.. and I think alot of my "partying" was to either numb myself up.. or to forget the pain... I'm burnt on that aspect.. i'm craving for something new, something fresh, something more real and GROUNDED in my life.. I don't know what it is... but I know its more than just having a good time with friends and getting fucked up. I WILL still get my DANCE on cuz I love it..thas fo sho.. haha.. Isaac- this guy.. is a good friend.. and no matter what.. I will still keep him as a friend But.. he has made me realized, when I do something from now on... MAKE SURE IT MOTHER FUCKING COUNTS ALL AROUND- IN A POSITIVE WAY.. :)