The Golden BOY-

So last week me and my sis get home and I get bummed rushed by a screaming Frenzy yelling out "AUNTY ANALYNN!! AUNTY ANALYNN!!" It was Josh!! He's back and it felt soo to see him have him screaming in happiness :) Gosh we all missed him.. especially with everything that's going on right now with our entire family... He's only brought back POSITIVITY BACK with him.. I'm soo proud of him and how he's handling his life.. He's like my oldest son/bratty younger brother- weird.. but soo lovable. He was cracking me and my sister up soo bad.. after he calmed down being all hyphy and excited and put me down and took a step back and said.. WOOOOOO AUNTY ANALYNN!!! (Mind you Joshua hasn't seen me in about 2 years) He started off by saying.. Ummm ya.. you're not Aunty Analynn anymore.. you're just "Analynn-... do you have any friends?" Then he went on to saying are you still in Publishing or are you a stripper now.. and if you're not a stripper.. maybe you should consider being one.. DANG AUNTY ANALYNN!!! YOU LOOK GOOD!! I felt WEIRD but i know Josh was just joking around.. it was funny but it had a little sexual harrassment in there a lil.. lol. We ALL DRANK UP with Josh and got FUCKED UP~ it was cool tho we all had deep conversations, he opened up to me and my sis how he felt about his dad.. and what he would say to his dad if he did see him.. I told Josh, he's a man now.. and whatever he says to Billy- WILL BE WELL DESERVED AND RESPECTED. We all had a memory moment about Crystle and how we all missed her... One thing I will remember with Crys- is when I lived on Bolton way.. we were chillin outside having a cigarette.. 2 dudes rolled up and asked if we give them a cigarette they let us hit their blunt.. so Crys gave them a stogie.. and we SMOKED thier blunt up with out even passing it back to them... HAHAHA.. I WAS CRACKING UP the whole time.. cuz she straight BOSSED them on their own Blunt.. fucking love Crys for the Balls she had.. Brenda and KAREN.. YES FUCKING KAREN.. even kicked it with us too.. When I got to Ma France house for the Rosary Prayer.. everyone was kinda acting funny asking if I was cool? and I was like ya why? Then that's when Chels was like.. Cuz.. Karen is here. AT FIRST.. I WANTED TO LEAVE because when I heard she was in the house.. my first reaction.. or instinct.. THIS BITCH IS ABOUT TO GET FUCKED UP- FUCKING TWEAKED OUT METH HEAD BITCH. I know Chelsea already knew what I was going thru because Chels even looked a little frightend of me for a sec when she told me.. like she was ready to say.. "Aunty Analynn, jus calm down".. but she didn't.. and I DID. I took a deep breath and retracted my thoughts.. I wasn't there to beat KARENS ass down.. i wasn't there to judge anyone.. i was there to pay my respects to my lil Sis Crys.. and that's what I was going to do. And that's what I did. The whole night when we all kicked it .. i kept my cool with her and it was all good... Then Brenda busted out a back full of Crystal's belongings.. most of it was given to Josh, Chels, Jeff and Mia.. then Brenda came up to me and gave me a little box filled with playing cards.. she said these are special cards cuz these where Crystals fortune reading cards.. I know she would want you to have these.. immediately after she gave them to me.. i excused myself and hustled to tha bathroom to cry my heart out.. again...Poor Crys.. you are soo missed, and loved... This morning I received a facebook message from Karen.. She pretty much said she was soo sorry for hurting the family.. for leading bill back to that path.. that she didn't mean it.. she was a fucked up diffrent person then.. and she was greatful that i kept it cool with her. this made me hurt too.. because.. I HAVE/ or I had soo much anger towards her.. But i had to let it go.. because.. there's a bigger picture out there.. and i'm tired of wasting my time of negativity.. I'm tired of wasting my time just to let my heart break.. i've moved and i am moving forward.... LIFE IS TOO FUCKING SHORT- LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH AND LEARN.. always...