Sexier, Hotter, and SHUT IT DOWN-

Sexier, Hotter, and SHUT IT DOWN- oh oh ohhhh! Naw jus kidding- Well I went to Hawaii and did my thing.. on the Very last day.. i found a spot felt the winds blow.. watched the tide break.. and let EVERYTHING GO.. All the fears and heartaches I carried for the last couple of years... I LET IT ALL GO... LITERALLY.. I didn't re-cap on all the painful memories or anything like that.. but I gave it all to GOD and asked him to just take it all away.. and just give me PEACE- It felt good.. made me re-focus and become stronger inside- For sure.. the next time I go to Hawaii.. its gonna be me and my kids.. I had fun with a bunch of wild CRAZY SINGLE ladies... but.. I think next time.. I really wanna be chill and just enjoy the beach, the sun, and the sand with them. They're growing soo fast.. and I feel bad sometimes for all the bullshit that they've gone thru and had to see too.. so now its time to create new memories.. and this time.. I wanna do it right- JUST US- I lost about 5 lbs when I was in HI so I wanna keep it up so I've been pushing myself back on track by working out and keeping busy. I think this time- I'm gonna do more Kickboxing- more ab and leg work outs- Denise is SUPER happy i've been consistant on my workout..and I love the positive feeling it gives me when I see the results in the mirror- Anyways.. i'm just venting, ranting.. blogging... I do wanna share- I walked into the grocery store the other day.. and this man comes up to me and says.. "You are Absolutely STUNNING"- I smiled and walked away.. I thought that was a sweet comment... I laughed inside myself.. because.. jus 4 years ago.. I was no where near Stunning.. i've never even considered myself to be stunning to anyone. Then when I came to work Debra tells me when she was in carpool (she rides to Hercules) she rode with 2 guys- she started cracking up because they were talking about some lady they see everyday walking to the carpool line and how this lady used to be FAT and now she looks REALLY GOOD.. come to find out.. they were talking about me!! The two guys pointed out to Debra who they were speaking about and she started laughing and told them I was her co-worker.. she didn't tell them much but she mentioned how they had all these questions about me... LOL.. cute.. Well I just wanted to write a little.. i know i haven't been so detailed lately.. I'm just embracing my new life.. and I'm thanking GOD.. i've made it this far.. Gotta stay level headed.. gotta stay humble.. (~.~)