Crystal Cruz.....

So This has been ANOTHER ROUGH WEEKEND... On Friday it was my Girls Cherina's Birthday Party= and Yea.. you know how we do.. we PARTIED! I had fun.. saw Ace and tripped out for a second.. I think I even got emotional.. because I hadn't seen him in years.. and of course, when I saw him.. I thought of Eli.. God I miss Eli.. We all do.. Anyways..we kicked it at the party for a bit.. he was with his boys and I guess they Jam and play real "island" music with Drums and the Uke.. he was like "Aye!! she's a singer.. Come on Analynn Sing!!" I was like Dude.. i was a teenager then and yea.. my voice isn't the same especially with all the smoking I do.. Ace seemed shocked.. but it was all good. kinda cool that he thinks I still have a nice voice.. But yeah.. the party was cool.. met some new people.. had fun.. The next morning Robbie calls me frantically.. He starts by telling me that he's at my sister's apartment and he doesn't know how to go about telling Jeffrey and Mia.. and I'm like "ROBBIE SLOW DOWN! WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT???" That's when Robbie breaks down and tells me Crystal passed away sometime during her sleep last night... I'M IN SHOCK.. I ASKED HIM "WHAT????!" AND he repeated himself again... Billy's youngest sister passed away in her sleep last night... my heart dropped I was in total disbelief.. I FUCKING HATE BILLY RIGHT NOW.. I FUCKING HATE ALL METH ADDICTS THAT RESORT BACK TO USING THAT DUMB SHIT AND FUCKING UP THEIR LIVES.. I HATE METH!! FUCKING BILLY.. WHEN HE WAS GOOOD HE WAS GOOD.. HE WAS EVEN TAKING CARE OF CRYSTAL OR MADE SURE CRYSTAL WAS ALWAYS TAKEN CARE OF... AND NOW... NOW SHE'S GONE...AND HIS DUMB FUCKED UP ASS IS LOCKED UP AGAIN.. AND NOW HE WILL MISS HIS OWN SISTERS BURIAL.. WHY?? BECAUSE METH IS THAT FUCKING GREAT I GUESS.. DUMB FUCKER!!! pooor baby Crys... i'm sooo sorry you were alone like that... I know you missed your mom I know you were hurt billy was gone... I know you're ok now.. you are loved and missed. Growing up and My sister and Billy were together.. Crystal ALWAYS hung around me.. she was much younger but she always had to tag along with Billy.. so we got close.. she was like my own younger sis... ohhh fuck this hurts.. The worst part.. Grandma Josie is even more worse.. so this weekend we all stayed with her at the hospital.. just trying to spend as much time as we can with her now.. because... literally it can be any day now.. No one was able to get a hold of Chelsea when everything went down.. so I kept on trying to call her.. then I guess when she finally woke up.. she called me first.. asking what was going on.. she had soo many missed calls... So I told her... "i'm sorry baby.. you're untie crystal, passed away sometime this morning.." Chelsea was hysterically crying.. I had to calm her down... she wanted me to pick her up but I told her I was on the way to the Hospital because Grandma Josie was not in good condition either.. Chelsea started crying even more..Thank GOD for Robbie he went and picked up Chelsea to come back home to be here with the entire family... Josh will be flying in today or tomorrow.. this is one of the most Saddest Seasons... I've ever went thru.... ever...