So I spoke with my EX’s attorney yesterday… AND…. We sign and FINALIZE our divorce on DECEMBER 6th!!! Wooo hooo!! I’m super excited- internally I feel like I can finally EXHALE and let everything GOOOOOO-
The only thing I regret about my marriage to Roland.. is that.. I wish I would’ve left him a LONG TIME ago.
I think I was soo blind, in believing him, wanting to keep my family together, even if it meant BEATINGS, Mentally and physically… I was in such a dark hole… my heart hurts when I think about what I let my kids see… what I didn’t protect them from..
BUT NOW- I’m free- my kids are with me, and LIFE IS GOOD-
No matter what type of rough times I go thru… it wasn’t as rough as being in a locked room and not knowing if you were gonna come out with a broken limb, or..worse.. alive….(NO ONE SHOULD EVER endure.. what I went thru.. EVER-)
THANK YOU GOD, FOR ALWAYS PROTECTING ME, KEEPING ME ALIVE, KEEPING ME SANE.. GIVING ME THE 2ND CHANCE IN LIFE TO REALLY SEE how LIFE should be WITHOUT having this “DARKNESS” held over my heart, my head. Thank you for giving me the courage to stand alone-when I felt like I had absolutely no one…
God has blessed me in soo many ways, with my children, Mike, my family, friends, work… and Me.. my whole change.. from being FAT, LAZY, SLOW, had this Happy on the outside, but severly depressed inside-
Now- I’m actually content in life- THANK YOU GOD, THANK YOU GOD, THANK YOU GOD!!!!! I never imagined life could be like this –
So Now - its time for me to celebrate as MS. ANALYNN LA CHICA!! Dee and Sandie are getting together and they’re throwing me a HUGE PARTY… I wanna either do this at Shiro’s or possibly in Vacaville at the other place Rue Dj’s at or… CLUB6 SF- Definitely where ever we’re gonna do this.. I’m going ALL OUT.. its all about me, my new life… and to celebrate!! I’m writing up the guest list now… haha.. I know its gonna be a couple more months.. but This is another thing I’m looking forward to.
Well- Me and Mike has decided NOT to buy any gifts for the kids.. I mean they’ll get like one small gift… but… we’re planning a HUGE surprise for them!
Were acting like we can’t buy much because of all the bills and blah blah blah blah- BUT… SECRETLY.. WE’RE going to DISNEYLAND!!! Its soo hard trying to keep this a secret from them too! Salina has never been to Disneyland, and the last time I went was when Jade was 3 years old which kinda sucked cuz Jade was super sick during the whole time there.. come to find out she had Pnemonia.. Anyways- YAYU!! I can’t wait to see their faces when they get this little Christmas Gift for Christmas… haha.. We’re buying them Disney Gift cards… so when they open their gift = They’ll think oh wow I got a Disney gift card.. But.. not only did they get a “gift card” but they get to use it in…not the Disney store at the mall.. but at DISNEYLAND!!! Definitely we gotta video record that.. hahaha.. its gonna be good!
Well the wedding is this Saturday.. I’m SOO NOT READY.. I got the itinerary in my email yesterday… sooo many things I gotta do but sooo little time to do it…
I’m looking forward to the wedding, I’ll be seeing all the long lost relatives, I haven’t seen in DECADES- its gonna be good.
Well I’ll end this one short.. cuz.. yea.. got lots to do.. I’ll write more later- LOVE YOU, miss you, Mwah~
