I came home Friday, and it was soo cute.. Mike had our new bed set up and everything! I love the Sleep number bed.. I literally slept like a baby the first night… didn’t even wanna get up on Saturday Morning cuz the bed felt soo good- Mike even bought the 400 thread Egyptian Cotton sheets- I sooo look forward to getting into bed with Mike.. now more than ever… haha..
Well on Saturday Morning I hurried and took off to El Sobrante to help my oldest daughter set up for her baby shower… My new Compadre and CoMadRe are super nice- They rented out a hall, had a crew to set up and decorate… we didn’t really have to do much but set up the cake and place the balloons everywhere..
So before the party started I took lala to the side and gave her my baby shower gift to her… I had hand written a card out to her.. expressing, how I’m soo proud of her, how she’s matured beautifully, and how I KNOW – she’ll be a wonderful mom… that was already emotional for her to read, but when she opened her gift and realized it was her baby gold bracelet with her Hawaiian Heirloom Gold “J” Heart she cried even more… she had thought she lost her “j” when she was way younger, but I had found it and kept it…
Anyways the baby shower turned out BEAUTIFULLY-
(me and my sisters w/my niece Chelsea- Blessing Lala's baby-
Me and my lil crew-
Jocelynn, Jared, and Jadelynn
I think that was the biggest BABY SHOWER party I’ve ever been to… I had ordered a 4 tier cake with lollipop mini cupcakes, and it was sooo DELICIOUS! Literally all the tons of food and cake and everything was GONE- by the end of the baby shower… She had over a 150 guests- It was nice seeing my EX-in laws- I’ve never had anything against them, till this day they still claim me as family… Roland’s Grandmother came and she told me how much she missed me and that I should still come by to visit. The one thing that got to me was my EX mother in law.. I noticed how she was happy at first to see me.. then it was like all of a sudden when I said “hello” it was like she remembered she was suppose to hate me or something… cuz afterwards in one quick second her whole demeanor changed , she gave me this Yuck look… So I pretended not to show that I noticed- So I smiled, gave her a hug, and asked her how was she doing? She replied back in a Meek kinda “I don’t wanna talk TO YOU” manner.. she said “ohhh… I’m ok” then she snapped back and asked me how I was doing… and that’s when I flashed her the biggest happiest smile at her.. and said “I’m doing MUCH BETTER NOW” (thinking in my head now that I’m no longer with your SON!!!) And I knew she knew exactly what I was talking about… I don’t hate my ex-mother in law… I feel very sorry for her.. but there was one time..(and I have forgave her in my heart, but I will never FORGET) Roland was beating me in our room one night.. this particular beating… I thought was my last.. because I thought I was gonna die- He had jumped on top me and began chocking and punching me.. I remember screaming and begging him to stop… then he had grabbed the plancha (iron) wrapped the cord around his fist and punched me in my jaw… I remembered I screamed feeling my jaw crack… it sounded literally like bloody murder-Lala at the time was only 9 or 10 years old.. . Roland had locked me in the room and I remember hearing her screaming and crying with my mother-in law at the time because LALA was terrified for me and new her dad was beating me… she tried to call 911 for help and kept begging her grandmother to help me.. but Roland’s mom… told her ”NO” and took the cordless phone from her… SHE NEVER HELPED ME WHEN her son BEAT ME… she NEVER STOPPED HIM.. and SHE STOPPED MY kids from trying to get HELP- … I DON’T HATE HER… but I hate her actions… AS A LADY, AS A MOM… SHE COULD’VE HELPED STOP THIS A LONG TIME AGO… but for her, trying to defend her son, for trying to teach my kids that it was what I deserved-I won’t FORGET- (My fault too- I hate myself for not realizing sooner..smh)
I THANK GOD WITH MY WHOLE HEART- I AM NO LONGER WITH THAT FAMILY OR SITUATION… I understand things truly happen for a reason- I ask God to just bless him and her-
I REALLY DON’T KNOW HOW I SURVIVED ALL THOSE TIMES… *sigh* Yes my life is definitely GOOD NOW---- AHHH.. ok back to now time-
Lala was soo tired afterwards, I told the guys just to haul all the gifts back to her house cuz it was NAP time for her and the baby… it was a beautiful baby shower- I’m soo excited about my little grandbaby!
On Sunday, I woke up early and went to the gym.. OHHH MAN IT FELT GOOD to sweat like that… I can’t stress enough- if I work out and I don’t sweat like I look like I just got out of the shower…and my muscles aren’t burning with pain- then it wasn’t a good workout… but yesterday.. I busted ASS… LITERALLY- cuz today.. my ass hurts like a mofo! Haha –
Oh and last night I slept on a “firmer” # and it was cool to be able to adjust to how I’m feeling… I need a firm bed due to my workout-
Later on that day we went Christmas shopping and bought some gifts for the fam bam and kids…. I’m looking towards “family time” during the holidays- Dee and Lamont are throwing a big after thanksgiving party so I’m looking forward to it… and Christmas time is coming!! I wanna surprise the kids big time… sooo… with all this over time extra money I’m getting… I’m THINKING about buying tickets and taking us on a little trip… we’ll see-
Ok time to go I’ll write more later Love you, Miss you …. MWAH!
