When I was about 2 years old and we lived out here in SF I received a wicked bite from a poisonous spider on my left thigh.. I became gravely ill and I my left leg became paralyzed… after I recovered my mom thinks, the spider injected me with some type of toxin or something because any time I get a cut, or a bad insect bite and it becomes infected my left thigh starts to act up as if I was bitten by the spider again.. my leg swells up, I can’t walk, I go into a high fever, and usually if I don’t take my emergency meds on time.. I have to receive anti-biotics via IV- long story short- I have a reoccurring condition called “Cellulitus” - breakdown- it’s a skin/blood bacterial infection and the mainstay of therapy remains treatment with appropriate antibiotics, and recovery periods last from 48 hours to six months.
So on Wednesday morning I felt FINE- but by 10:00 am I noticed I started to feel sick like.. and when I got up to use the bathroom my leg started hurting.. I checked and noticed immediately my thigh was starting to swell up and became feverish instantly.. I told my boss I HAD TO GO NOW.. before my condition worsens.. so I left walked my sick ass to Bart, Mike picked me up from Richmond Bart station and took me straight to Emergency.. I had to be wheeled chaired in cuz my leg hurt soo much… The emergency Dr. on duty at the time didn’t even bother to look at my medical records, he kept on diagonosing it as something else telling me that he needs to call a dermatologist specialist.. I was soo weak and my fever kept on rising.. Mike was pissed and told the Dr. to read my medical records because this is a “REOCCURING ISSUE” it sucked this Dr. was slow- but Mike got thru to him FINALLY and they gave me my regular Meds…so I took off from work the last 3 days and did A LOT of ME time.. plus I wanted to be well for the Halloween Party we were attending on that coming Saturday…
On Thursday I had a follow-up appointment for my leg but it was later in the afternoon.... and I’m usually up before the crack of dawn so sleeping till 6:30 am is like how a normal person feels when they wake up at 10:00 am on a Saturday.. ANYWAYS- 3 days prior I received 2 letters from my home girl – M***** I finally got a hold of what jail she was at, and I sent her a letter . She sent me back a letter and all the information on where she is and her visiting times and.. etc…
So since my leg was feeling better and it doesn’t take much effort to drive and sit and visit a friend.. I did a little road trip left early and got to the Jail place. The only other time where I ever had to visit someone in Jail was for my ex-bro in law.. and that was YEARS ago… so this time it was kinda all brand new… anyways.. I put money on her books b4 I got to sit and visit.. in her letter she sent she said that a regular pack of TOP RAMEN that costs .15 cents in the grocery store is .70 cents there in Jail.. the food is disgusting- wet white bread in the morning and a small packet of butter or peanut butter.. a snickers bar is close to $1.50 .. I guess you gotta pay ALL THE PRICE when you’re locked up huh?..
I was sooo EXCITED to see her!! She looked good considering her condition… I was only allowed 30 minutes with her but it was the BEST 30 minutes I had- I soo missed my friend.. We cried a little but I sucked it all in because I just didn’t want to make her feel any worse..
She has full blown AIDS- The day she was arrested, was also the same day the Dr. told her about her condition. And the made a mistake -It wasn’t just HIV but she has flown blown AIDS.. which means.. she is terminal.. the last time she saw her 3 youngest was in June.
She told me things in regards to her case.. shes locked up in Maximum security- She’s being charged with Murder and Torture and faces 23 YEARS to LIFE. Her days at jail – she only gets 1 hour “free” time and 23 hours of mandatory “lock down” time… One of the first things she said to me when I got there … “NEVER EVER COME TO JAIL- jail, sucks, I miss my freedom, NEVER EVER do anything STUPID TO GET LOCKED UP” I promised her I had NO PLANS TO- She asked if I could be a character witness for her and I told her of course! I KNOW nothing about what REALLY happened in regards to her case.. and I told her.. honestly I don’t want to know.. But I have no problems telling the court what kind of person she is. We talked, it hurt inside hearing her tell me how she has AIDS, and she’s still trying to absorb it.. how she DOESN’T want to die in Jail.. How she misses her children soo much..
I felt selfish, and ungrateful - when she asked How my life was going, what was new.. I promised I would visit again, and when I get more cash, I’d put more money on her books. I left feeling horrible leaving my friend there, but it also made me HUMBLE myself. Because all this little drama bullshit I go thru, all the little bitches, gripes, and complaints I have… in all sincerity, I thank GOD for EVERYTHING..My life could’ve been just like hers… and I just thank GOD for always blessing me and keeping me safe. Like I said before.. my parents too.. I thank GOD for them.. cuz they pray for me and my brothers and sisters and their families on a DAILY BASIS. M***** said.. I miss just walking out my door walking down the street or driving to the store just to buy a candy bar- When she said this - It made me realize… how a lot of us take our freedom for granted…
On Friday- my oldest daughter Lala had the day off.. she’s 7 ½ months pregnant.. so she stayed with me the whole day- We ended up talking and doing mommy and daughter time.. We needed it.. she’s growing beautifully –I told her that she could’ve waited in having the baby.. but then its also a blessing in disguise because she used to be OFF THE HOOK- OMG.. I don’t even wanna go there.. but yes, my daughter has matured beautifully.. and I’m so proud of her.. and soo excited about my little granddaughter coming too! Ohh shit which reminds me.. I still need to find Hello Kitty baby Cake toppers… uggh.. she’s having a FAT baby shower.. I told her boyfriends parents I can help by buying the cake… and some food.. so I ‘m surprising her with a 4 tier cake decorated in Pink with Hello kitty designs all over it-
By Saturday my leg was fine- and I was back up and RUNNING! I ended up giving Dee my Vampire costume so her and Lamont went as Vampires and Me and Mike went as 1920”s Mobsters – Dee won 1st place for SeXIEST costume.. and me and Mike won 2nd place for CUTEST Couple costume.. 1st place winners were Sandie and Rue .. ONLY BECAUSE RUE’S NIPPLE was showing!!! LOL.. J/K.. we had an AWESOME NIGHT.. we got our perk on.. danced- afterwards we did a little after party, party got perked more then Chilled out at Ihop at around 4am… we didn’t get to bed till 5:30 in the morning… and when I woke up My hips, ass, legs… HURTED!! It was from all that ass shakin… haha..
On Sunday we took the kids to the Dixon Pumkin Patch.. they had a blast going thru the maze… Mike made it thru like in 5 minutes.. hahah..Nothing to a boss-
Last night was the BEST though.. Mike took me to our “special spot” he calls it the GX13 super classified hideout.. haha.. We had a serious good talk-
And it felt good just being with him alone.. talking about our plans – Overalll even though we go thru little “bullshit”… Life is definitely Good-
Well tonight its Halloween! Can’t wait till I’m off work. Gonna do Jada’s and Salina’s Make-up and Hair tonight- they’re gonna have A BLAST- we have several places that we’re taking them too, and we’ll be with Mike’s friends and their kids too.. ya I can’t wear my gangsta girl outfit tonight with the kiddies.. so I’ll probably dress up like a big baby girl.. piggy tails.. pajama’s and a baby bottle… haha..
Happy Halloween!! Get your Trick or Treat on!!
Love you, Miss you, and Mwah!
BONNIE AND CLYDE- TWENTY ELEVEN
i'm soo Gangsta' and He's soo ThuG-
