I’m feeling soo much better than last week- and things seem to be coming together. All the surgical tape came off this weekend.. and it was PAINFUL-
Some of it has been coming off on its own, just like the nurse said it would but I couldn’t stand the blackened edges and how it was just flapping off or how it would snag against the top I was wearing and then tug on my nipple.. HOLY SHIT that hurt.. sorry TMI.. but it’s my blog, so oh well –
Anyways.. Mike has been telling me to just take a nice long hot shower..and that way it will come off easier.. so I finally took his advice and did it on Saturday morning.
Dr. Hvistendahl does AMAZING WORK..I’m still tripping that these are mine!! Oh- which reminds me.. I’m buying him and the staff a box of chocolates from Godiva as a “Thank You” for the wonderful work he’s done.
Everything seems like its healing accordingly, sometimes I can feel my muscles move with the implant.. its kinda weird I guess it’s just my body getting used to it..
I get scared sometimes and I have to remind Mike to slow down and be “easy, or gentle” with his handling- cuz he GOES WILD on me.. I mean.. ha-ha he did before I had the boobies done.. but now… it’s even more intense.. I do have to admit.. SEX IS SOO MUCH hotter and funner- just seeing my boobs bounce, jiggle in his face, or in the mirror, or when I’m standing and he’s behind me.. ha-ha.. yea.. hum time to make our own little infamous “SEX TAPE”… hahaha… ?
On Friday after work Mike picks me up- He asks what I wanna do, cuz for the rest of the night we have NO KIDS! (Thank you GRANDMA & GRANDPA!)
We go to this Mexican restaurant and had steak and shrimp burritos. Mmm it was soo good.. after that he takes me to my FAVORITE store, and buys me 2 hoochie tops for my new twins! One is a black silk like halter top (for clubbing) with a neck tie strap- and the other was a sweater like white halter with side straps- SOO CUTE (it’s the white top I’m wearing in the pic I posted above). I ended bumping into Sandie there too.. She was soo excited to see me.. and as usual she starts off with a punch to the shoulder yelling “I hate you! You Fucking skinny bitch!” and then while she’s eyeing me up and down, I see her eyes stop were my tits are.. and she stares in amazement.. and starts gloating in a loud voice “YOU FUCKING BITCH!! YOU’RE NOT WEARING A BRA!! I FUCKING HATE YOU! YOU’RE SKINNY AND YOU DON’T HAVE TO WEAR A BRA!! LOOK HOW BIG AND PERKY YOUR TITS ARE!! YOU FUCKING BITCH!!” I Started cracking up and then ran up to hush her mouth cuz I noticed other people in the store started looking.. LOL.. FUCKING SANDIE!! I love her soo much! Hahaha..
We played catch-up again- She said that her husband was Dj’ing for Halloween at some club and invited me and Mike to come for the costume party.. I told her I was soo down! And of course, the perks of being BEST FRIENDS with people in the entertainment industry.. NO ENTRANCE FEE , VIP SEATING with BOTTLE SERVICE- I’m looking forward to it! Mike already mentioned and it was weird because it was exactly what I was thinking too.. that we dress up like “Bonnie & Clyde” old time gangsta’s Zoot Suit and all- so YES… I’m looking forward to it!! She told me to invite whoever and just let her know.. so I told Dee and Lamont…I’m crossing my fingers that they come too.. DEE wants to go dancing soo bad.. and Lamont keeps yelling at me .. that she used her “clubbing” card to the max this year.. haha.. I don’t hear him.. I only hear what she says.
We had movie night with them, then chilled outside looking at the stars, doing adult talk, ended doing Tequila shots.. I forgot what kind of Tequila it was but that was sooo smooth.. no burning.. tasted soo good.. was BETTER than PATRON. I think I’m sucha lite weight now in drinking.. before.. I could do over 10 shots of tequila and then I’D BE GOOD.. now.. gimme 2 SHOTS.. and its OVER- I get buzzed super fast.. which is good cuz I don’t need much.. but it could be bad too.. cuz I get fk’d up FAST.. so shots.. are.. umm. Limited to literally ONE now.. other than that.. I could only sip on a drink..
Well I had some Daddy Drama with my EX this weekend. I’ve been actually proud of him on how he’s been handling the kids, taking them consistently, actually SPENDING QUALITY time with them… and then yesterday.. HE FUCKED IT ALL UP AGAIN.. I hate how he tries to use the KIDS and their emotions as PAWNS to hurt me… but what he doesn’t understand is.. the kids REALLY SEE who is doing WHAT.. so whatever bullshit lies he tells to them… MY KIDS already know.. WHO AND HOW their MOMMY IS. My son even said it- and it makes me feel good to know my kids are SOLID.. BUT IT BURNS ME INSIDE KNOWING THAT THIS MOTHER FUCKER IS TALKING ALL THIS SHIT about me- TO OUR KIDS… FOR WHAT? Oh yea.. that’s right.. To remind US and HIMSELF that it wasn’t me who made him a SMALL DICK, ASSHOLE, PUNK ASS MOTHERFUCKER. … Because he just PROVED – he’s still is ONE.. without ME- He dropped the kids off to our house yesterday and I ran up to his car and told him “ I wanna talk to you.” He started rolling up his window and started yelling out shit like he had to go and didn’t want to talk.. and then Mike came out and started yelling at him.. I froze for a second cuz I thought something was gonna happen.. but THANK GOD.. it was just words yelled… Ro left.. nothing was really accomplished.. but I have a plan for that- I meet with his attorney this Thursday… and I think we need to have SUPERVISED VISITATIONS again… I’m not DIGGIN this VERBAL mental ABUSE that he’s doing towards the kids.. and whats worse, My son came to ME and told me EVERYTHING .. and told me he KNOWS his dad is just mad and saying stupid shit, but he doesn’t want to hear it either-
Overall- I had a good weekend –got some hoochie mama clubbin tops, chilled with some good friends, cleaned the house-
except for the surgical tape removing.. and the Ex-husband mommy bashing.. I would say.. things are cool :)
Well its Monday- time to get my “hustle and Grind” on
Love you, Miss you, and I’ll write more later- Mwah!
