Perfectly, said. This is why I am now.
Lots of things are changing fast.. and I think I’m just going thru the motions…
G texted me the other day.. She told me that M****’s health is going bad fast.. my heart sank again.. I felt horrible just thinking about everything. I cried hard for about an hour just thinking about the whole mess.
I had to past thru Temple way the other day because Billy has family that lives on Masonic.. and I passed the court where supposably the body was found.. I’m thinking and scrambling in my head.. WTF was she going thru?!! How did this Police cadet mother of 5 Smart, Strong lady.. turn and go into this crazy path…I trip hard because 1. She is a VERY good CLOSE friend of mine… and 2.Our lives and the things we’ve gone thru were soo similar that it just brought us closer together..
Aside from everything.. the murder, her health.. she is still My FRIEND. And my heart aches knowing.. she’s literally dying. And her kids.. that’s the part that kills me her kids… 3 of her kids are the same age as mine…we would have sleep overs with her kids all our kids are good friends too. Lala is the only one that knows what happened.. Jared has no clue only that she is sick….
Her son D is actually a little older than my boy so when Jrod started going to Springstown Jr. High… D would watch out for him and made sure NO one messed with Jrod. D even almost got into a fight just protecting him… ohhh FUCK THIS REALLY SUCKS.
I’m planning on meeting with G sometime next week.. I wanna give her some money and put it towards M*****’s kids.
I don’t know how G is doing it.. she has her own kids to deal with..her own family life drama.. let alone now she has M*****’s kids to deal with now too.
She mentioned that they all have to go thru some serious counselling because they’re really going thru it .. I can only imagine.. G says.. she’s gonna go thru counselling too because Mentally, and Physically its wearing her down. I wish I had the time and the money to do what she’s doing.. I would take care of them if I could… But my plate is full as well.. and GOD knows… I love her kids like my own~
Talking with Dee always makes me feel better..I know all of this is out of my control, and no, I’m not involved.. but it just all hurts to know all of this ..(I know I’m repeating myself) and what she and the kids are going thru. Dee told me, if I can.. make time and visit her before its too late…
I am and I will.
On a lighter note.. we’re leaving for camping this Friday!! Well EARLY Friday morning.. we’ll probably leave around 2 am .. I wanna go early anyways that way the kids can just sleep on the way down.. its about a 6 hour drive.. but from my understanding this camp site is well worth it. We needed to do some quality time with the kiddies
I’m working on making my new before and after video and I’ll probably make another Camping vacation video as well.. I love doing that shit.. last week Pauline asked me to send Nelson a little thank you note for treating us to lunch.. So I took a picture of our group did a little editing, cut and paste, animation graphics, and voila… sent the power point to everyone…
They loved it! Pauline came to my desk and said you’re in the WRONG Buisness FIELD ANALYNN!! She praised me for how fast and entertaining the little presentation thank you note I made for him. Her compliment made my day *smiles*
well here are some pics I wanted to post...
