Date:April 28th, 2011 Weight:145lbs Mood:Exotic
So last week my boss sends out an email saying he'll be taking Tuesday and Wednesday off. Then it goes into explaining as to why he won't be at work, due to a doctor's appointment. WHICH he should have left the email at that.. but nope.. he goes into further detail telling us that he'll be having a colonoscopy or some shit like that.. and it will be done on Wednesday. But he has to stay home on Tuesday (the day before) because he has to clear his bowels... ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS? AM I READING THIS ALL CORRECTLY??!! My boss just literally gave me a visual of something being shoved up his ass and prior he'll be shitting the whole day before.. I didn't know if I should laugh or cry at this... LMFAO!!! haha that was like waaaaaay TOO MUCH INFORMATION!!
I just thought it was funny.. he should've just sent an email stating he had a doctor's appointment and that's it.. plain and simple.. ugh just thinking about what he has to go thru.. YIKES!
Kim took off early today.. I'm super proud and excited for her! Her appointment is in June and i've already put stuff away for her to have so she won't have to buy for the aftermath. Anyways.. since my other partner in crime isn't here today.. I decided to take an early walk on the Embarcadero today.. I bumped into Agnes and her husband. Both her and her daughters also dance in my hula group and I also got her going to my gym and she's been doing kickboxing too. I haven't seen her in awhile as well, she did mention she stopped going to class but just re-started last week.
Her husband gave me a hug too.. then he says out loud.. "you are soo SEXY."
I felt naked, embarrassed, and weird in front of Agnes.. with her husband comenting on me like that... but she agreed with him.. and so that made me feel better...
I think because my body has gone thru this huge trasnformation.. and people where just used to me being soooo fat..that when they see me.. I guess they're shocked. I think one of the irritating things I don't like hearing is when I get the comment "oh my gosh you're soo pretty now!" I think in my head.. WTF I must have been an ugly ass mofo before then? My body changed... but not my face!.. or maybe it did.. I can't tell.. I look at myself everyday and still see Analynn...LOL.. I just think its sort of like a messed up comment.. and you wonder why people in society have fucked up complex conditions...
I'm over it.. I can dig it. I get it...haha
Everyone always talks about how there belly gets small the legs and all that.. but geez.. can we talk about my boobs for a minute..
I WANT a boob job.. not like a freak nasty poll dancer kind..maybe something similiar but more sutle. Mainly I just want my shape and perkiness back.
My boobs have changed..after 3 kids and all this weight loss.. i am sooo unhappy on the size of my boobs now..I want a boob job badly...But its something I have to seriously think about.
It has been heavily on my mind lately. I think as I get closer to my goal weight.. I'm gonna really start looking into what my options are.. if theres a workout where my boobs can get bigger and perkier.. then i'm doing it... but if all else fails... then i'm gonna have a real serious sit down talk with Mike. He mentioned to me before he loves me as me.. and he doesn't want me to get a boob job.. if I did.. he said our relationship would be over... I'm wondering how serious he is about that?
And why be mad about it?? I think tons of guys would be ESTATIC if their fiance's had a boob job.. but then.. Mike isn't like every other guy... so.. yea.. I hope he can understand that I want it for myself...
No Boobs isn't super important to me right now.. but it would be nice if I could get a nice set back.. lol..
Recently I had a conversation with Dee.. we started talking about the whole marriage thing between me and Mike.. I don't even know where to start.. if we're gonna have it out here.. or what.. I told her, honestly, I would just like to have a big reception party out here for close family and friends. What sounds nice to me is a Sunset barefoot wedding on the Beach in Hawaii with just an intimate group of friends and family. I think that would be nicer.
wow we have so much planning and looking forward to things... that's a good thing :)
Ok time for my next break... gonna take another walk and think about my boobs...lol j/k. (~.~)
