VENTING-
Its fucked up- ALL THE WAY AROUND.. I’m pissed… no.. not pissed… I’m fucking APE
SHIT MAD inside because of the situation I am in…
I don’t want my “Name” Jacked in ANYWAY as far as the IRS
GOES and all that other bullshit..
I had a pretty ugly day yesterday.. and I feel like I’m at
my wits end… I know I’m ok.. and ultimately things will “pan out”….
But on the Reals… I DON’T NEED THIS DUMB BULLSHIT.. I am
SOOOO SICK OF the negative..
I’m going back to So-Cal and I am soo looking forward to
it.. I was suppose to buy my plane ticket for me and my sister tomorrow..
But if this dumb bullshit that I’m going thru fucks my shit
up… OH MAN… I don’t know…
I had a very interesting conversation last night… and it
made me wonder a lot about things…
I LOVE – MYSELF – and this is very KEY - because if I didn’t love myself… I would be
WAAAAAAY OVER my head on A LOT of things..especially my ASS.. AND MY “hyphy” personality… THERE WOULD BE NO
BOUNDRIES.. AND POSSIBLY EVERYONE WOULD BE DEAD… naw… haha just kidding… :D
But loving myself – gives me borders.. and boundaries.. that
I know I should NOT cross.. because… in the long run.. if I didn’t give a
fuck anymore about myself…
Everything that I’ve gone thru and survived thru and kicked
ass thru.. WOULDN’T MEAN SHIT.. Would have all been a waste - so I HAVE to remind myself, even if it might
seem “weird” to others… I have to always
remind myself…“You are Better than that ANALYNN!!! REMEMBER THIS!!”
I think I’ve gone thru some HEAVY SHIT in my life.. more
than what a normal person would see in a LIFETIME..
AND I SURVIVED, I became smaller physically but WAY STRONGER-
MENTALLY-
I guess maybe that’s why I’m able to endure rougher things
than others.. or in a different way.. I
have more of a deeper understanding on situations ..
Or in Layman’s terms=
I’M NOT FUCKING STUPID AND I DON’T FUCK AROUND WITH DUMB SHIT-
UGGH.. OK NOW I’m just ranting.. I’m just tired of NEGATIVE
things happening around me… time to flip this bitch funk negative mode.
Definitely going to class today and gonna work my ass OUT…
that’s my only stress and SEX reliever at this time…ay yai yai….
I’ll write more later… miss you, love you, Mwah-
wait.. I wanted to write this...
"solidify and define "
