I'm coo... but deep down inside..

I had a really cool weekend- did alot of things.. Visited my home girl Dee and we had an AWESOME talk.. I love my girls because when we do get together and chill and have some deep conversations.. I trully learn from them as I'm hoping they do from me... Both of my best friends are married- and no they do not have perfect relationships- They admire me being "single" to an extent.. because literally with the exception of my children.. I can do whatever I want with out having to answer to anyone on why and what.. They have this inside joke with me.. "Analynn, DO IT FOR US GIRL" lol.. its funny... but deep down inside.. i'm thinking.. really.. I'm "coo" I heard it from both of my girls and the stuff they go thru with their husbands and what not.. and she was like You're soo lucky because you don't have to go thru this blah blah blah.. but then I flipped it... Money issues, little disagreements, funky smells, and the odd shit their Men do.. is all apart of being Married, and in that commited relationship... because after all the crazy little stuff.. at night.. in the morning.. they wake up to that person... as to where.. I have no one that I can wake up to in the morning.. I have no one to lay my head on at night.. I only have myself.. and as an adult, as a lady... its soo very lonely... I told Dee.. all that bullshit put to the side...on the real.. you get to wake up to the love of your life every morning and go thru the motions.. but that's what its all about... so hold that.. appreciate it.. loath it.. samething with Sandie.. I wish I had that.. I mean.. there are some relationships that are volatile and waking up to stupid shit and constantly arguing or being physical or demeanoring to your partner on a daily basis is NOT something to stay in.. but with my girls... the "little" things that they complain about, are really growing blessings of their love with their husband and thats what makes them one... I see this, I understand it- This weekend has showed me alot about life.. and I'm grasping it, understanding it, and growing from it-