Venting, and Ranting, and taking a step and makin the best out of this mess

This move has put a total deficit in my pocket.. Well, the move, feeding and paying the boys that helped me, and then my Oldest daughter.. She's getting married next year.. so I wrote her a check for down payment towards the wedding.. Its gonna be in Hawaii Next year.. and well.. I'm happy for her- So yesterday after unpacking more stuff.. I realized... wait a minute... my shoes.. I can't find my shoes... so I called my dad since he helped me moved .. and come to find out.. He accidentally put my shoes in the donation pile.. Yesterday was rough.. My son isn't gonna get to walk his Jr. Highschool Graduation line because he is missing credits. They said he is still going to pass.. but he will not be in the Ceremony.. this crushed me.. then my mom gets into it and REALLY... I did not want to hear it..but I sucked it up and let her talk and talk and talk... So last night.. I closed my door, looked down at the floor, covered my hands over my face, and said.. man FUCK THIS PLACE- that was last night.. This morning as I got ready for work.. I thought ok what can I do about all this.. 1st- Jrod is GOING TO SUMMER SCHOOL whatever he has to do to do it HE IS GOING TO DO IT. 2ND- I'M BUYING ME SOME NEW SHOES DAMNIT!! I got rid of alot of old bullshit.. its time for this mama to go on a little shopping spree.. fuck yea.. I haven't like gone shopping like REALLY SHOPPED IN AWHILE. 3. I'm blessed.. some chick is gonna be walking in some banging heals- and I'm only shedding some of my beauty blessing so I can in return get more.. reciprocate- haha.. at least that's how i'm looking at it. Thru all of this - all of the stuff I've been going thru..My grandmothers death, my move, my kids.. there is a handful of people in my life that I am not related to.. but they are my family.. and I love them dearly- for checkin on me, for helping me, and just making sure... I'm ok.. and for that I thank God.. They help me keep sane.. and somehow.. I always find the laughter and beauty in what we're all doing. Thank You God.. for my dad getting rid of my shoes, and thank you for blessing me with some Awesome people in my life.