faaa resssh

I feel tired, anxious, horney, emotional... I don't like hurting peoples feelings because I know how it feels and I've been on the other side many many times.. and I DO NOT like be dishonest either.. and with my mouth and depending on how i'm feeling.. I CAN be BRUTALLY HONEST. So I need to remind myself.. there is a way to say things in a manner where its not degrading to another but more understanding.. I'm not interested in anyone else but the person I am currently talking with who is... Isaac. THAT IS IT.. NO ONE ELSE. I'm falling hard for Isaac and I love how he makes me feel. He's soo Faaa resssh.. haha and he's always on the positive.. which i also love about him. I met his baby girl yesterday.. she's so pretty and VERY shy. I'm enjoying this new journey in life and i'm enjoying these new feelings that i'm feeling.. Cause honestly.. my heart was SUPER BITTER. And now.. alot of things have change.. and I don't wanna waste time being a cold hearted bitter bitch despite all the shit i've gone thru in life... REALLY.. because I think I could be a perfect canidate for that .. but I'm choosing to fuck what everyone thinks and says- I'm doing what I wanna do.. and right now.. Isaac is the one that is constantly on my mind.. I don't know where this relationship is headed to, but I love the fact that he always MAKES me smile... no matter what.. even the day I found out about Glenn.. my heart literally broke.. and when I spoke to Isaac on the phone.. I wasn't soo sad anymore.. and he made me laugh.. like he normally does. however, whatever.. I'm glad Isaac is in my life. There are some GUYS that work here at my new job.. and REAL SHIT- I'M STARTING to feel very uncomfortable about the snickering and shit they say. One of the guys here.. is a little TOO much.. yesterday he left me all these little gifts, and now this morning when I got in to work.. He gave me another one...but I'm kinda thinking maybe this dude has a little mental issue.. I don't know... And then the upper management and Sales and marketing dudes... FUCKING ASSHOLES.. Ok I can be GHETTO FAB with all my homies and talk a gang of shit- but when I'm at work in the office- I keep it professional as possible. I was totally bothered about how when I was walking down the hall and there was traffic with all the unpacking and then the group of sales guys snikering and saying shit but HELLA LOUD- REALLY? DUDE YOU KNOW i CAN HEAR YOU... I SERIOUSLY DID NOT EXPECT THAT in the WORK ENVIRONMENT. One man snickered, the other was making stupid remarks if fries come with my shake the other asked what are you looking at and the other said OH YOU KNOW WHAT I'M LOOKING AT.. ok I expect this at the bar, club, wherever.. but at WORK? IN THE BUILDING.. AND WE ALL WORK IN THE SAME OFFICE?!! FUCKING ASSHOLES.. WATCH.. its just the beginning if that continues... i'm jus saying.. sexual harrasment is a mother fucker... AND IF YOU'RE MARRIED AND GET FIRED FROM the job.. how do you fucking explain that to your family?... dumb fucks. I'm documenting shit now.. i'm not playing around.. I don't really like how I feel when they say stupid obnoxious shit like that.. I'm hoping this is only the first and last time I have to go thru that.. but yea.. watch.. if these motherfuckers.. continue with this type of bullshit.. ok i've vented for the day.. I'm looking forward to the weekend... i'll write more later.. I got big brother the bitch watching me now... Love you miss you.. mwah-