EXTREMELY BLESSED (~.~)

Right now.. inside.. i am Happy.. Why?... because I am EXTREMELY BLESSED. I was going to write down all the things I'm blessed about.. but I have been EXTREMELY BLESSED.. that.. there is just toooo much to write :).. THANK YOU GOD.. FOR LOVING ME ALWAYS, AND ALWAYS just taking care of me, my family, and my closest friends. I'm just gonna write some Random ass shit so i'm sorry if i run on back and fourth to diffrent subjects.. 1. i'm in the Dirty Girl Mud run Marathon this Feb 2 in San Francisco!! I'M SUPER EXCITED ABOUT it!! i've been training hard not to win.. but to just complete the WHOLE course and to say I DID IT!! Plus its for an awesome Cause- so YEE!! This was also another stepping stone for me.. because.. I also quit smoking cigarettes for this reason.. I wanna do more in my life.. i wanna experience more, and be more active with my kids.. so again.. Thank you GOD- for the strength, will power, and determination. 2. Forgive- but not forgotten- I've been severly HURT.. By A COUPLE of people that I TRULLLY DID LOVE- and i've learned in this.. there is a fine line between LOVE AND LUST.. Integrity in a person is a PRIME quality I will look for in any person that I let into my life.. I forgive all of them.. for everything.. but i won't forget.. because it was my LESSON LEARNED. 3. GO HARD and be a TRANSFORMER- If I can do dumb shit hard.. then I can do GOOD THINGS in beast mode too. I need to use this energy and focus it more on the positive. So... ok i'm just thinking about it... but.. maybe.. just maybe.. I'm seriously thinking about doing the Bikini Body make-over competition too.. i'M STILL AMAZED ABOUT Rosini and how she literally BLASTED HER body OUT!! She's soo Dope for that.. and such inspiration.. I'm not doing this for looks or to be some HOT BITCH.. but damn.. NEVER IN MY WILDEST Imagination or DREAM did I ever think I would ever come this close to sculpting my body with the work outs I do.. The cuts I see, how my muscles are becomming more and more toned and defined.. I'M LOVING IT!! EVERY EFFING MOMENT OF IT!!! Thank you GOD AGAIN!!!! because.. I was sooo FAT before.. and I really thought I was going to die over weight with diabetes and no legs... REAL SHIT.. i was a walking JABA THE HUT. 4. FUCK THIS ICE HEART SHIT.. I need to get over this FUNK mode.. EVERYONE gets hurt.. i understand this.. but I trully also believe.. THAT GOD HAS MADE A PARTNER FOR EACH and everyone of us... and YES.. I Want a PARTNER.. i want my partner in Crime, LOVE, HATE, LAUGHTER, EVERYTHING. So.. I am gonna change this outlook and let LOVE flow- and really let it melt the Ice I have Wrapped over my heart... Ok could really go on and on.. Thank you for this new day- I'll write more later... :)