I wrote this a week after me and my ex split. I remember how my son was so torn, and.. how he is now.. I Thank GOD for keeping my kids safe. And I thank Mike for being there for my son..
11/25/2008
Last night-my son came into my room, I noticed he had this heavy look on his face. I sat next to him, and asked "what's a matter?" He cried to me, he told me that he felt like everything was all messed up. He told me he doesn't think that me, and his dad should be together, but he hurts inside. He mentioned how he also felt that everything was chaos, his sisters, him, me, his father. And that he missed how things used to be.
My heart broke for him. I just held him, I told him, how much he means to me and how much I love him, and I Promised him even though things are super rough right now.. its only going to get better..
Its not hard to let go of Roland, because I let him go a long time ago …. But its just hard to see the kids feel and go thru the motions too.
I know my son, and my daughters, are gonna get thru this fine…. But right now, its just-heartbreaking....
(To God: for my kids… at least just for now, please… just, ease their pain. )
