Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Plant that seed with Love - and watch it grow... I needed to hear that..and see it -

My oldest daughter came by last night with her fiancĂ©. We all got into conversation about my youngest daughter and what kind of activity am I going to put her in, what are the plans for her birthday… and out of no where.. My son.. being and acting his age.. started talking SMACK about negative stuff, how Jade is lazy, she doesn’t listen.. yadda yadda… I told him he needs to slow his roll- Then he goes off to tell me that I need to be more nicer to Jade and I need to do this, I need to do that.. and I should listen to him cuz he is the man of the house.. He didn’t mean this literally but sarcastically and joking.. but I did take offense to it.. so I cut him short- Told him he needs to check himself and recognize, yes that he is the Man of this house because he is the ONLY DUDE living here but recognize WHO RUNS THIS HOUSE, WHO Pays the bills and puts the food on the table… but before I could get really started… Jocelynn (my oldest daughter) stops us both and says to Jrod- Jared you where with me all weekend you saw how HARD it was for me to take care of Leilene.... I cook, clean, laundry, take care of the baby… it’s HARD you even said it yourself… So you shouldn’t even talk to Mommy like that Jared.. cuz SHE is doing this all on her own.. and at that she is taking care of you and Jade.. I do a lot of stuff – and it NEVER ends.. and I have me and John so there are two of us... Mommy just has herself. At that moment everyone got quiet.. I felt a lump in my throat but sucked it in. Jared had his head hanging down and said Ya.. you’re right..I’m sorry mommy… I think He needed to hear that too.. After Lala left and the kids went to sleep- I thought about everything that had just happened… and it made me realize.. you truly reap what you sow- And it is obvious with my children… I’ve planted some mean loving, smart, tuff, compassionate, AWESOME- seeds into them. I cried a little.. not because I was sad… but because.. it also made me realize.. My baby girl… has grown from this cute, bratty, ballzy chick… into this beautiful, wonderful, smart, amazing… Lady- And I am soo proud of her. Years ago- Me and my children where in a different place… a different world… and for the things we’ve went thru and endure… Thank You GOD- With all my heart and SOUL- Thank you-