The House Plant -

I cannot WAIT till my new place is ready!! I'm moving to another town.. and I KNOW this is going to be an AWESOME move for me and my kids. I think about the whole situation I was in.. and "real shit" everything happens for a reason.. I know I have people praying for me all the time.. and I truly believe GOD is looking out for me- Last Month I made a serious prayer to GOD telling him I don't feel right in this relationship.. and there's always been something wrong... I asked him to give me a sign... and sure enough. I Get a call.. which confirms.. what I've denied to myself all along.. The Darkness comes to light- I admit I was lame, blind, tooo loving, I think deep inside of me.. I really just wanted my family back.. and I did get it back.. with just me and my kids :) Someone once told me "Analynn, you're like this house plant" I didn't understand what he meant by that.. then he went on to explain... "you're like this house plant- for right now... you see, a house plant just stays inside most of the time, not getting enough light, or water.. its a house plant so its a routine thing... and that's you now... but wait until they put you out in the garden to grow.. to get that sun... to BLOOM.. that's what's gonna happen to you... but right now.. you're a house plant." That conversation stuck in my head... and that was about half a year ago... Now this houseplant is MOVING OUT.. MOVING ON... and is about to BLOOM- I've been thru worse situations, more heartache than this... so its good..I'll recover fast- but the only thing that literally hurts my heart is Salina..I love her like my own.. On the positive note- When one BIG UGLY DOOR CLOSES...7 more beautiful doors open- So there's this contest on WILD 94.9 Girls night out.. BABY BASH will be performing LIVE AND the only way to get into this even is to WIN TICKETS... AND I WON!! Me and 3 of my girlfriends get to go, they do our hair and Make-up, free drinks, yummy edibles, male strippers.. All of it being held at the FACTORY in Frisco!! Damn, its been awhile since i've been there too.. so HAIL YEAH!! I'M GONNA GET DOWN! On Top of that ... i took a chance and tweeted Baby Bash that I won tickets and I was EXCITED to see him perform live... and.. HE RESPONDED BACK TO MY TWEET!! YEEEEE!!! I WAS SOOO JUICED about that! haha I still am.. fO SHO! Then.. Next week is Mine, Dee's and Sandy's Big Birthday Bash at the "CROWN" i'm super juiced on this too!! we have 3 DJ's comming and mixin! OMG- this too is gonna be OFF THE HOOK! FO SHEEZY! haha.. So Monday is my birthday.. and For this weekend's plan.. sky's the limit.. We might check out Shattuck Downlow- in Berkeley its a Reggae Club and i've been itchin to dance to some island beats..So yeah.. i got some big things going... And on to Dating Scene.. EVER since i changed my status FROM in a relationship to SINGLE... let's jus say ...my email box has EXPLODED.. REAL shit- I got one email from this one of my guy friends- I'll make you feel better.. all you gotta do is come to my house get lit, and i'll eat your pussy and you could leave happy... When I read this email.. I was like ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS? Another email: from one of my Homies.. Yo, it's my Birthday.. and I want you as my gift- My response:cute but.. umm NO Facebook Message: Analynn, Please, Please, Please... jus let me hit it one time! Me:SMH.. I haven't responded back... haha.. thinking about giving him a chance.. naw j/k but yea.. I show my girlfriends these emails... and they tell me over and over again... YOU NEED TO WRITE A BOOK oK GOTTA go.. i'll post new pictures .. HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 ME... Living, Laughing, Learning, and Loving... always- Miss you, love you, Mwah..