So on Friday Mike picks me up from work..When I get into the car he's holding more than a dozen of roses and He tells me he has surprises for me thru the whole night, that the kids are fine, and I won't have to worry about them because its just Me and Him tonight. He takes me to this Hawaiian Restaurant near SF on the bay.. He even gets us seats waterside so we can watch the sun go down.. afterwards he says we're only having cocktails here but he has reservations at another restaurant.. I'm totally surprised, extremely greatful, and excited about the events he has stored for us. We finish our cocktails and then we head off to dinner.
We get to the restaruant and our table is ready. He tells me no need to look at the menu cuz everything is handled. I'm soo impressed with all of this planning and putting together. Afterwards.. he takes me out for a night in the city... and later we park facing the bay.. looking at the moon..
We talked about EVERYTHING.. He put some perspective into the whole story as to the missing pieces. How she initially contacted him FIRST thru Facebook about a picture of his grandparents.. and from there she kept on being needy, and how she started to become flirty..and opening up to him how she felt "Unloved by her husband because she thought she was a bad person and didn't deserve to be loved" How he even told her.. she does deserve to be loved..etc.... Then he finally told me WHY he stopped texting and calling her. It was clear and evident, even in her emails and the final text messages she was sending him... her email that even stated "something must be wrong because I haven't heard from you in weeks".
He admitted to me he that he came to a realization that he was not in love with her.. and that he only loved her as a friend. He didn't know how to explain this to her because of all the things she was going thru her husband problems, the passing of the young niece.. He didn't have the heart to tell her, the truth.
It was quiet for a moment, after he told me everything...
And then.. I finally opened up to him too.... About me and Tony. And how, Tone played a huge part in helping me leave my childrens Dad.
He told me he had a feeling that Tone was more than just my friend.
And I confirmed.. yes, Tony was more than just a friend.
And like Mike, I completely understand how you can have love for a person, but feeling the Diffrence for having love, and BEING in LOVE is completely diffrent.
Because in all honesty? I do love Tony. I will ALWAYS love Tony. But he is not the man I'm in love with.
I know its kinda cheesy.. but like what Eminem said "Yeah, It's been a ride...I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one"
I think this whole ordeal...has only brought me and Mike.. closer, & stronger....
I love "Us" (~.~)
